I have to make a decision.
Six months ago I started a course in massage therapy. To be completely honest, at the time, I wasn't sure whether I was going to adore it. I just had a good feeling about it, and I knew I wanted to do something involving alternative therapies and helping people directly.
I signed up, paid my fee and turned up to class wearing entirely the wrong outfit for a therapist.
But, I'm a screw-it-I've-made-my-mind-up-and-I'm-going-to-do-this-thing-dammit kind of person, and so I threw myself into it.
Thankfully, I've loved every minute of it. So much so, that I'm kicking myself in the shin (not too hard, those muscles need protecting) for not doing this ten years ago.
And, while I've enjoyed being in education again, it's been a ten-ton-elephant load of work. Which would be fine if I was 21, with no kids and no where else to be and nothing to worry about. But, as other student-parents will attest, it takes a slightly crazy person with a lot of energy to parent small kids while studying and working at the same time.
I have two months to go, and then I'm finished.
Except, maybe not.
Because now I'm considering doing the second year...
First year teaches the basics (anatomy, physiology, pathology), and how to do relaxation (Swedish) massage.
Second year teaches therapeutic massage. Which means I'd be able to treat patients with sports injuries, motor vehicle injures and certain medical conditions. I'd be able to work with physicians, chiropractors and physiotherapists. I could even teach massage therapy.
In other words, with the second year I'd be fully qualified and able to do the more interesting work.
(Here begin the whiny excuses.)
But if I do the second year, I'll have A WHOLE OTHER YEAR of school, homework, exams, practicum... The thought of it is making me sweat.
But if I don't do the second year now, I might never get around to it, and might never get those important qualifications to do the interesting stuff...
But if I do second year now, I won't be finished until July 2011...
But if I don't do second year there's a chance I might kick myself really hard in the shin...
Excuse me now while I go dip my head in a bowl of icy water to alleviate the pangs of stress.
I need some encouragement here folks.